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16 June 2009 @ 01:19 pm
[alfred] trustworthy  
Title: Trustworthy
Pairing: Implied Alfred Jones x Arthur Kirkland
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own them.
Notes: Oucrap, my first contribution to the Hetalia fandom. :))

"It's going to be okay." He told me when I was a child. It was probably that, his smile and the hand that reached out for me which made me choose who my older brother was going to be. There wasn't anything wrong with being with Arthur. In fact, I was most comfortable with him. Sure there were times when we would fight, but hey, it was puberty and hormones.

With him, I was either really happy or really frustrated. I never liked the fact that he had to go home to the other side of the world from time to time. I would always cry whenever these days would come. Of course, I wouldn't admit it. I am a hero, after all. Feelings are supposed to be hidden from those you really care for because they may take advantage of that and defeat you. Alfred F. Jones is never defeated.

But looking back on how things are and were, maybe the Revolution wasn't exactly what I expected. Did I use the fact that somehow, I knew that Arthur couldn't shoot me as an advantage? I was dear to him as he is to me. but I wanted freedom and independence. I couldn't just rely on him forever. But seeing him fall down onto his knees that day... It was painful to think that I was the cause of all his pain, agony and loss.

"You were so great..." I remember telling him that. It was no use. Arthur gave up because he knew it would be impossible to continue. That time, I turned my back at him to return to my new boss, but I had to say thank you before leaving. I smiled and I knew that he knows that he still means a lot to me, even after everything.

Now we're considered as comrades, allies... Both trying to defeat Germany, Italy and Japan. Our past had been considered forgotten, but we've probably moved on. It would have been nice to just have the same relationship. But as I clean my storage, most of my memories of him only invoke sadness. By then, I always wore a bittersweet smile.

"It's going to be okay." He smiles and reaches out a hand.

...and I believed every word of it.

NOTE: I wrote this on a notebook a few days ago, but man my horrible writing couldn't get any more horrible. :< I re-wrote some parts because I couldn't understand my own writing. ;;;;; This was a "spur of the moment" thing and I have no idea what my plot was behind this. This will probably get a funny sequel or something because it's too sad for me. :
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: Bodyguard → SHINee
v-animeldaphrazey on June 25th, 2009 01:32 pm (UTC)
so sweet <3
the 1st-person POV is pretty unique. love it :)
Zeenzazada: Beautifulzeenzazada on June 27th, 2009 03:10 am (UTC)
Oh gosh, its so cute-sad-ish D,:

great story, I love your style of writing.